London. Where is next?
My head is too small to talk about why or what had happen to london last Thursday.
Similar attacked at new york, bali, and madrid in recent years. Those are among world’s leading countries in many ways. They stand tall and proud. But not when you do not feel secure, not when you are afraid of being attack at work, on the streets, in the trains, or buses. What is happening? What had ‘powers’ done to them?
Hmm, let’s leave the politic to the ‘politicians’. Or, I’ll be full of shit. And I know it.
However, I have a say on–fear.
You have no idea what damage had it done to someone in those incidents unless you have experienced it yourself. This london attacked reminded me of my very own experience, where the bus overturned while I was in it.
Ever since, I hate speeding, being inside a bus where I have no contact with the drivers as if I lost control at my position on anything that will happen, drive pass trailers or whatever kind of huge vehicle on the streets. Simply put it, I do not enjoy speed anymore.
There are so many ‘what if’ in mind. Imagine the wheels come off at high speed, the bus in front skid, or… so many things to be afraid of. That feeling is not pleasant. Even the smell and noise of the busy street I get when I wind-down the window make me sick.
To share with you: I had about five seconds to have things sorted out in my mind on ‘what if I die’. My loved ones came first into my mind when it happens (I know who). I truly believe so will yours. I saw grief on them if terrible thing were to happen to me. I wasn’t thinking about me in those five seconds.
So, now what about those people in fear of getting out of the house because it is not safe outside? How much kind of fears do they have to bear, or to get over them? It is indeed very sad to have to live in uncertainties. It is not gonna be happy.
I love peace, peace of mind, so do you, and everyone else.
With hope, I pray those ‘wiser’ than I am people out there will lead us to a better future. Finger crossed.
July 12th, 2005 at 6:43 pm
Traggic happens everywhere and it is never easy to live with the trauma haunting you. But I think to a certain extend, we still need to carry on with our life normally. Maybe you can stop taking bus to avoid the trauma but for others maybe it is not an option. We normally have the mindset of hoping things to get better through the hand of others. Hmm… maybe I think that it is time that we start taking proactive action ourselves to make things better.